Sunday, April 26, 2009
Hey people.
After going through so much...
I still don't have any time to settle down.
Everyone was crying during my Grandfather's funeral.
It was really sad.
Looking at someone you love and care about.
Going away.
My Grandfather will really be missed.
By everyone in the family.
Including me.
And even after all these..
There's examinations.
I'm really stressed out.
I don't have any time for me to do what I want anymore.
I have to just set things behind me.
And go with life.
As if nothing has happened.
As if its just another day.
I have to buck up.
And let go.
I blasts myself at 10:36 PM :)
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Yesterday,
10:27 pm.
1st Call from my relatives from Malaysia informed us that Grandpa had just fainted and was sent to the hospital.
11:06 pm.
2nd Call.
Just when I was praying for the health of everyone in my room, I heard my Mom mention Heart Failure when she was on the phone.
I went out of my room, asked, " How's Grandpa?"
And the reply I got...
,"He's...passed away."
I miss him.
I just wished that I had more time to talk to him.
I.. never expected him to go so soon.
I feel helpless.
My Mom's feeling terrible.
If I, lost my father,
I wouldn't know what to do..
I really took life for granted.
Never lost someone before.
Until now.
Father and sister's being insensitive and thick-headed.
Pissin' me off.
SYF's out.
Depressed over the result.
How did we get COP?
What wrong have we done.
Worked so hard for..
This.
Sure,
ELDDS bonded a lot through out.
But still, I expected us to do a lot more.
a Silver at least.
And I'm really ashamed to face people.
People go,"Heyhey! What did you get for your Drama SYF?"
Me: COP
Them: Sure or not? You kidding right?
Me: No I'm not. We got COP.
We've failed expectations man.
Big time.
I feel that..
We've let down
a whole lot of people.
Disappointing
Depressing
Things aren't looking up for me.
Not at all.
I'm not going to school tomorrow.
Leaving for Malaysia later to attend my Grandpa's funeral tomorrow.
Will be back by tomorrow night.
This time.
Its not right.
Its, not right...
I don't want all this.
I blasts myself at 7:52 PM :)
Saturday, April 11, 2009
We all have emotions.
And I've never felt someone, who's been close,
Let out so much of his emotions before.
A side I've never seen before.
His emotions, his depressions,
All Out.
Guess I got to know him better.
Talked to him.
Tried to.. understand him, a little more..
Bit by bit,
bit, by bit...
I love hearing people.
Love listening to people.
Connecting with them.
Sharing about each other.
And after this experiences,
I've found out, that,
There's always a side,
that reflects our emotions
A side that may not always show,
A side that makes all of us..
Human.
I blasts myself at 10:42 PM :)
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Alright,
Tomorrow's the big day.
Finally after countless times of practices and rehearsals.
People pray for us or something.
Really nervous and stressed up.
Hope we can at least achieve a SILVER.
Last batch got GOLD during 2007 SYF
ARGH REALLY REALLY stressed up for tomorrow's SYF
Anyway, this is gonna be short post,
I've gotta get my rest so I can perform to the best of my abilities tomorrow.
Sorry people for not updating my blog diligently.
Cheers for Tomorrow!
I blasts myself at 10:22 PM :)
