Yesterday,
10:27 pm.
1st Call from my relatives from Malaysia informed us that Grandpa had just fainted and was sent to the hospital.
11:06 pm.
2nd Call.
Just when I was praying for the health of everyone in my room, I heard my Mom mention Heart Failure when she was on the phone.
I went out of my room, asked, " How's Grandpa?"
And the reply I got...
,"He's...passed away."
I miss him.
I just wished that I had more time to talk to him.
I.. never expected him to go so soon.
I feel helpless.
My Mom's feeling terrible.
If I, lost my father,
I wouldn't know what to do..
I really took life for granted.
Never lost someone before.
Until now.
Father and sister's being insensitive and thick-headed.
Pissin' me off.
SYF's out.
Depressed over the result.
How did we get COP?
What wrong have we done.
Worked so hard for..
This.
Sure,
ELDDS bonded a lot through out.
But still, I expected us to do a lot more.
a Silver at least.
And I'm really ashamed to face people.
People go,"Heyhey! What did you get for your Drama SYF?"
Me: COP
Them: Sure or not? You kidding right?
Me: No I'm not. We got COP.
We've failed expectations man.
Big time.
I feel that..
We've let down
a whole lot of people.
Disappointing
Depressing
Things aren't looking up for me.
Not at all.
I'm not going to school tomorrow.
Leaving for Malaysia later to attend my Grandpa's funeral tomorrow.
Will be back by tomorrow night.
This time.
Its not right.
Its, not right...
I don't want all this.