Monday, September 28, 2009
Hi People. Before I start off I just want to thank you guys for reading this, and I feel good knowing you even care about reading this blogpost.
Anyway, I based this blogpost on a book titled, "Emotional Bullshit". I can kinda relate to it. Yep, its been a long time since I updated my blog, and there's no better time to revive it than during the exam period. *sigh* I think everyone agrees that life has been pretty tiring, mostly mentally and emotionally.
I'm really gonna try hard during these fews days left before the exams to get my facts right.
Just before this, I was playing a flash music game on my pc. Both my parents reprimanded me about my conduct and that I should go and study, but they didn't say it in a nice way. I don't like that. And I don't understand why they do that. Minutes later, my sister started asking me if I was ever planning to study, I replied with a yes, and then she said wouldn't it be better if I was studying now than to play the flash game? Yes, she was actually at the dining table studying but not very long ago she was the playing the exact game and I haven't even really started playing yet. What she said hurt me. For some reason it did. People just can't be nice anymore.
My biggest complain about my school life is what actually happens at home. Where I;m supposed to feel comfortable. My sister has always been the one who was academically stronger between us, and even has a role of head of hip hop in her school. I'm proud that I have a sibling that's studying at HCJC but a lot of times, it affects me negatively.
My parents compare both of us a lot and obviously I'm always the one at the losing end. I''m never considered the better one in any aspect of my life, other than how I'm less aggressive and tidier, neater and that I eat my vegetables but that's just it.
Sometimes I do go to my Mom and say that I love her. But I don't usually get the same reply unless I ask for it. Her usual reply would be something like, "Alright" or "Okay".
Yeah I know all these complains are making me sound like some grumpy kid, but I just had to get rid of all that emotional bullshit somewhere. And again to the people that actually care about me, thanks. :)
I blasts myself at 10:24 PM :)
